I can't wait to get the birds outside for sunshine. I want to get a ceramic bird bath for Kizzy so that he can give himself a good soaking in the sun. He is not flighted, so can hang out with me in the yard without worry. I want to let him loose in the massive forsythia bush to trim what he'd like, and watch him walk around the grass discovering things. I want to let Hapi sit outside in his travel cage and feel the sun on his feathers. Ah, spring and summer.
I like thinking about all these future things now because my state of being "in the now" is a little on the rough side. A bit of a rant on deck, here. I am experiencing trouble in my hands. This is unusual for me, perhaps because I've used my hands so much for stitching and artwork? This scares me more than my legs going bad and having deformed feet. Renoir might have been able to still paint with his claw-like hands, but if my hands are next on the RA docket, will I still be able to do textile work? Teach? The hands are stiff and sore, and the skin is bright red and inflamed. I do not want to take more prednisone as that causes other problems. I've been told this is part of having RA, as skin is an organ, and am praying this is not the beginning of knuckle and finger dislocations. Am due for the next round of chemo meds in a few weeks, and hope that will help. Until then, I will continue to ignore the disorganized domestic vistas and the ever growing to-do list in favor of imagining all the good things to come when the weather gets better. I keep saying my RA mantra "and this too will pass." I truly hope it does!! Yuck, RA, just YUCK.
I hope you make something great today!!