When you feel like you've let someone go from your life, you truly understand what they mean to you. Growing pains, I hope, again. Like a true teacher (I was reminded of how intimidating it can be talking to a teacher as we talked last night) I made suggestions that might solve the problem and make it livable. We shall see. Day by day. At the end of July it will be only one year that we've been together. I hope things work out now and that this will be the first of many routine anniversaries. I am grateful that water-works have stopped, and I can again focus on important things and not yet another loss. Loss is a sadness trigger for me, like most people, but with my life experience it tends to cut deeper than with the average bear.
Am awaiting news on Hapi's bloodwork. He is not doing well. He is so scared of being toweled for medication that he flies away from me, screaming, and is clearly upset when out of his cage, thinking I am going to come at him with meds to take. He is not talking much and has plucked even more feathers from his beautiful self. Last night there was blood on his neck where he either caught a blood feather or nipped his skin. He is not a happy bird right now and I am scared of losing him, too, Feather plucking is so serious with Greys. I wish there was a definitive way to handle this issue, but there isn't.
Yesterday I took a trip to get some sunshine and feel productive despite feeling like a cloud was hanging over my head. I went to Extras for Creative Reuse in Lynn, MA. The place where The Slides came from. I became a member at that time to procure extra boxes of slides that were not in the metal cabinets I went there to purchase. Yesterday I figured I could stock up on cool recyclables and junk for parrot toys and the art room. During each visit, you can fill a shopping cart with any goodies you want. Really fun! I found felt, leather, ribbon, foam,corrugated cardboard and textured wood blocks for printing, fabric dye, envelopes and cool wallpapers for collage class, and more. And, gulp, seven more shoeboxes of glass art slides. I was tempted to leave them there, but the first one I pulled out was of Topkapi Palace in Istanbul, and the second was Manet (might there be "Young Lady with Parrot" in there?) It was a sign. In the trunk they went. Whats another thousand to go through? I want to put them into sets for teachers and art historians to use (they can scan them, print them, etc.) and hopefully will put them to good use. It is a life-long labor of love for art and history, I think.
Through Our Hands posted art by Ro Bruhn yesterday. Her fabric and paper books are really lively and wonderful! So much art, so little time! Onward to a day of cleaning, art, and hopefully a happier and restored sense of well being. Cheers.